Finding Sovereign
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6 years ago I entered into a mother’s worst nightmare. I can still feel the knife being stabbed into my heart when I heard: “Your child has cancer - she is dying.”
As I sat there in the dark, 7 months pregnant with our second, and my sweet Elle on my hip, I sank into shock... Elle required a series of transfusions throughout the night, just to keep her alive. She received her first dose of chemotherapy the next day. I left my career as a medical doctor immediately, and 6 weeks in, I gave birth to our second, between Elle’s treatments days. For 2.5 years, we journeyed with our girls in and out of the hospital, one hour away, to save Elle’s life.
I remember this deep urge to show my strength. So I put on my armour and went to war. Every emotion was held beneath the surface. After she went into remission and completed treatment, we hardly celebrated. We just had it in us to breathe again...and so life continued... And I got pregnant with our third. I had so much faith in life! Yet I soon learned that one challenge did not eliminate the possibility of another. A second nightmare ensued, learning that our fetus had a congenital heart disease.
I gave birth to our sweet boy, Jack, in October 2018, at 23 weeks gestation. His angel wings grew as he left us that evening, peacefully, leaving me completely heartbroken to this day. Fortunately for my self leadership, my strength and my courage, I pulled myself out of the bottom of the barrel, and I started my healing journey despite all of this trauma. I started living from my heart and my soul’s desires for the first time in my life. I realized I was worthy of happiness, and slowly started to feel free.
Divinely, I was gifted with another child, and gave birth to him in March 2020. He has led us through our awakening and healing, anchoring our family in pure joy. Elle continues her own journey, now experiencing significant mental health side effects from the chemotherapy. We walk together to heal, everyday.
For me, after all of these experiences, I have resurfaced as an elevated woman. A woman willing to lean into her fears, and live out her dreams, no matter what it takes. I am a woman who speaks truth, and lives by integrity and authenticity. I am here to create change, empower, and impact. First for myself, then for my children and lover, and the world. I continue my medical practice, but with an entirely different perspective.
My true passion lies in my business, Finding Sovereign. I now lead women to find their own sovereignty, through my mentorship and group programs, using my medical knowledge, my expertise in trauma healing, my learned emotional intelligence, and my intuition. I approach healing trauma through the true embodiment of the divine feminine. It is a powerful transformation that I have taken myself through and am here to guide other women do the same.”
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Unsinkable Storytelling Author: Lise-Marie Irving